Day 1523 Who are you when the door closes

26 04 2017

It was 76 degrees at 9:00 am this morning. At 12:00 it was 61 and now its 52 with a low of 45. Friday it will 90. I can’t change my underwear as fast at the weather changes in the beautiful state of Texas.  If you’ve never been to Texas make sure to get some BBQ and Mexican food it may give you gas but its worth it I promise!

I hate surprises when it comes to people. I would rather you be yourself from jump than pretend to be someone you’re not. I would never ask you to be like me and just put yourself out there from the get go. If you know me I’ll say just about anything, I volunteer information you probably didn’t want to know, I’ll let you know my faults, Ill tell a joke that might cause you to gasp, if the moment calls to cry with you I can and will, if you need me to defend you, I might lose my crap and get angry. I’ve been told and asked do you try to scare people away  before they get to know you? No I just want you to get to know me sooner than later. If you don’t like me you can move on and not waste time or say this is someone I want in my life forever. I want real! In any friendship or relationship there’s always a probationary period 1 month to 9 months. You kind of get a pass but we are who we are. What do you think is going to happen when people see the real you? I mean really think  about it if you become the bride or groom of chucky after 6 months do you think your relationship is going to flourish.

I have friends right now that long relationships are ending for the following, they were a drinker and hid it, one guy had kids that he never said anything about, another a porn addiction, one she sniffs markers when her kids go got school and passes out but gets up in enough time to still be mom and get the house ready. Another had an anger problem and she never knew he had until the first time she questioned him.  When you go home and close the door who knows that person.

Do you allow people to see the real you or do you put on a show? Do you exhaust yourself so much trying to prove you’re a great Christian, or mom, dad, friend but when you get home all hell breaks loose. The door closes behind you and your Halloween costume comes on. Being real is rare. I don’t have many friends, lots of people who claim to be friend but I have heard you are like nobody I’ve ever met. I always say thank you I wear that proudly. I tried to be a famous actor, and put my Halloween costume  on for people. It drove me to the point to try to take my life. I hope never again. I want you to like me but if you don’t its okay too. I’m not everyone’s cup of tea but I might be the best cup of tea you’ve had.

PS: Your closet door is open:)


Day 63 Hard to Save a life

23 10 2012

Six years ago June I did one of the things I am the most proud of in my life. I saved a life. I had been on the national Bone Marrow registry since 1997 and then I get a call. That someone in the US I was a match with and they needed my bone marrow or stem cells. I was all game except I was worried that I may screw them up and they would never be the same. After a great in-depth physical I was cleared and I started the process. While I was doing my part this amazing women in California was having all her cells killed off to be able to accept my cells. They actually give u chance to stop the process but there is a greater than 90% chance the other person dies. I remember the final day when they took my marrow/cells there was a person just waiting so they could immediately fly to California and deliver my marrow and cells. I didn’t know if she lived until 4 months and at 6 months. Well after 1 year I got to meet her. She is amazing and I m so proud of her for the fight she took on. 6 years later and a little lactose intolerant  (my fault). She is kicking butt in life. My friend Penny Neder is running in the Be the One  Run in California. Please support her by donating at this link Be the One Run

I also ask if you have never join please go there and sign up. It costs you nothing and you can save a life.

I had a really amazing day. I drove to Cisco Texas to meet with a wonderful lady named Karen who used to do our PR for my remodeling company. She introduced me to the Economic Development team there and they have some great things going on for the business I m working with now.  I also am going to get my book published. I wanted to write and get  published for about 10 years and now the dream will become reality.  Thank you Karen and to others for their support. I will have 300 copies at the beginning so you better buy one lol. This book is not about making money it’s about 1 person reading it and 1 life changing. AS you have read this blog I have been through hell and back and I tried to go there again. Only with God’s help am I here and I want to show that. She believes it will sale I’m so excited.

Also ate the best Mexican food ever. If your ever on 20 going West stop in Downtown Cisco and eat at La Finca Mexican. Try their French Fries they are great. The mexican food was great too.


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