Day 927 I want to be real for just a second

10 08 2015

Tax free weekend in Texas is by far the dumbest thing we have ever done as a state. Lets just say you spend 500 dollars for school supplies, clothes etc.. You save a  grand total of 42 bucks. Yes 42 dollars is good but the amount of pain, turmoil, sheer stupidity of the human race is not worth or will it ever be. I had to teach my daughter a lesson about so after she spent 1 hour at JC Penny waiting to try on a pair of shoes, they brought the wrong shoes and then wouldn’t help her. She learned a lesson and said dad never again. Today though shopping with her again and only waiting 20 minutes we with a found a pair of shoes. Shopping with a girl is like finding a needle in a river but we did it.

I want to be real. I know I usually am but today I want it to mean something. I would never expect anyone to stick their life out for somebody to criticize or beat you down. It happens to me and the others that are a part of our group. It’s okay it comes with the territory but when you can look another human in the eyes and tell them that you’ve never had a problem with sin or with anything or inside of you. I have no time for you. First of all God said we are sinners. That means every one of us and even you. I have never in my walk of life no matter how boring, innocent, quiet, reserved etc..  a person was that didn’t have something inside their closets. I love your glass house I really do but glass breaks.

I’m not judging anyone all I’m stating is how if God says were all sinners  that means you are too. I know people who put on a great party mask and want you to believe that their life is perfect. Who in God’s name wants to live that way. Divorce rate is out of control, alcoholism, drug abuse, suicide and I could go on they are all out of control. You might be out of your season of hell or it hasn’t come yet but stop trying to play pretend games with your life. Please stop trying to convince everyone your perfect and nothing is wrong. You know why, you’re the person struggling more than anyone. To try to beat somebody down that is honest, convicted because it makes you feel better is just terribly sad.  God never said don’t sin, he said confess your sin. Its freeing and makes life a lot easier, You can accept others and see them for they truly are. I love broken people. Why, because they are me, they are real ,authentic, loving and just easier to be around.

I want to be closer to God and Jesus. He knows I’m a mess. Perfect example: Every Saturday for at least a year I was going out to the bar with my friends and getting drunk. Every time I got in my car and drove a little or a long ways home and I was drunk. I was lonely and that’s why I did it. No excuses at all. I have my own demons and Saturday nights I lost them. I’m proud to announce for one month now I haven’t stepped into a bar or had a drink. I still deal with the loneliness but I’ve proven to myself that I can do this and honestly my focus and thoughts are more positive.

That’s real and its scary to let people know it but don’t you dare throw your judgmental, holy than now BS at me.  It helps me to be honest. It may not help you but if not just be quite. If you need help ask. More people want to be a help than a hurt. I learned that the hard way.  Just know somebody around you is dying slowly inside they need an encouraging word not a hammer over the head. BE THE WORD!

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Day 927 I want to be real for just a second

9 08 2015

Tax free weekend in Texas is by far the dumbest thing we have ever done as a state. Lets just say you spend 500 dollars for school supplies, clothes etc.. You save a  grand total of 42 bucks. Yes 42 dollars is good but the amount of pain, turmoil, sheer stupidity of the human race is not worth or will it ever be. I had to teach my daughter a lesson about so after she spent 1 hour at JC Penny waiting to try on a pair of shoes, they brought the wrong shoes and then wouldn’t help her. She learned a lesson and said dad never again. Today though shopping with her again and only waiting 20 minutes we with a found a pair of shoes. Shopping with a girl is like finding a needle in a river but we did it.

I want to be real. I know I usually am but today I want it to mean something. I would never expect anyone to stick their life out for somebody to criticize or beat you down. It happens to me and the others that are a part of our group. It’s okay it comes with the territory but when you can look another human in the eyes and tell them that you’ve never had a problem with sin or with anything or inside of you. I have no time for you. First of all God said we are sinners. That means every one of us and even you. I have never in my walk of life no matter how boring, innocent, quiet, reserved etc..  a person was that didn’t have something inside their closets. I love your glass house I really do but glass breaks.

I’m not judging anyone all I’m stating is how if God says were all sinners  that means you are too. I know people who put on a great party mask and want you to believe that their life is perfect. Who in God’s name wants to live that way. Divorce rate is out of control, alcoholism, drug abuse, suicide and I could go on they are all out of control. You might be out of your season of hell or it hasn’t come yet but stop trying to play pretend games with your life. Please stop trying to convince everyone your perfect and nothing is wrong. You know why, you’re the person struggling more than anyone. To try to beat somebody down that is honest, convicted because it makes you feel better is just terribly sad.  God never said don’t sin, he said confess your sin. Its freeing and makes life a lot easier, You can accept others and see them for they truly are. I love broken people. Why, because they are me, they are real ,authentic, loving and just easier to be around.

I want to be closer to God and Jesus. He knows I’m a mess. Perfect example: Every Saturday for at least a year I was going out to the bar with my friends and getting drunk. Every time I got in my car and drove a little or a long ways home and I was drunk. I was lonely and that’s why I did it. No excuses at all. I have my own demons and Saturday nights I lost them. I’m proud to announce for one month now I haven’t stepped into a bar or had a drink. I still deal with the loneliness but I’ve proven to myself that I can do this and honestly my focus and thoughts are more positive.

That’s real and its scary to let people know it but don’t you dare throw your judgmental, holy than now BS at me.  It helps me to be honest. It may not help you but if not just be quite. If you need help ask. More people want to be a help than a hurt. I learned that the hard way.  Just know somebody around you is dying slowly inside they need an encouraging word not a hammer over the head. BE THE WORD!

 





Day 843 What we have here is a failure to communicate

19 05 2015

Once again I made myself so tired from the weekend that I feel asleep with a book in my hand last night. That crap of learning by osmosis isn’t working either. At least I look smart falling asleep.  I’m also pretty lucky because my family got to hear my testimony this weekend. Rock Bottom Outreach spoke at a church in Azle and everything just fell into place for them to be there. AS excited as I was I had no idea how they would respond. They cried and I know they understand me just a tad bit more. Needless to say Big Jesus showed up!

Sometimes I can be the greatest communicator on earth and other times not so much. I heard a speaker once say that once you stop asking questions, asking why, and assuming that you have started your trek to failure. I failed in my marriage because I thought I knew everything I needed to about her and our life and it started to show I didn’t care. I stopped asking. Assumption is poison. Why? How many times did you get mad at someone who didn’t ask you about something and you got mad. When you asked them why and they said I just thought I knew. I instill in my kids never assume because you will always be wrong. Why not ask and just save the pain?

Why because it hurts to hear the truth. It might be uncomfortable but if you can’t or don’t conflict arises and nobody likes conflict. Well mostly nobody! I have learned this more in the dating world. If you have a failure to communicate or won’t communicate I’m not the guy for you. I learned with hiding my junk it caused ripples which turned into waves. You don’t have to communicate and that’s okay but not for me. When I got real with God I got to see the true me but came to expect to see that in everybody else. It doesn’t happen that way. I want to see any and everything about you. Yes even that. I know your thinking he’s going to judge me. I try so hard not to judge but guess we all judge. No matter how hard we try. My first judging turns into appreciation that you shared. There is not a better compliment that I opened up to you because I feel I could talk to you about anything.

This blog may seem pointless and not very deep and I’m sorry it’s not more  but I think it has so much here in the few words I typed. If your hearing the great Cool Hand Luke in the back of your mind tell you “what we have here is a failure to communicate” then you have failure and its time to open that mouth and ask.





Day 843 What we have here is a failure to communicate

18 05 2015

Once again I made myself so tired from the weekend that I feel asleep with a book in my hand last night. That crap of learning by osmosis isn’t working either. At least I look smart falling asleep.  I’m also pretty lucky because my family got to hear my testimony this weekend. Rock Bottom Outreach spoke at a church in Azle and everything just fell into place for them to be there. AS excited as I was I had no idea how they would respond. They cried and I know they understand me just a tad bit more. Needless to say Big Jesus showed up!

Sometimes I can be the greatest communicator on earth and other times not so much. I heard a speaker once say that once you stop asking questions, asking why, and assuming that you have started your trek to failure. I failed in my marriage because I thought I knew everything I needed to about her and our life and it started to show I didn’t care. I stopped asking. Assumption is poison. Why? How many times did you get mad at someone who didn’t ask you about something and you got mad. When you asked them why and they said I just thought I knew. I instill in my kids never assume because you will always be wrong. Why not ask and just save the pain?

Why because it hurts to hear the truth. It might be uncomfortable but if you can’t or don’t conflict arises and nobody likes conflict. Well mostly nobody! I have learned this more in the dating world. If you have a failure to communicate or won’t communicate I’m not the guy for you. I learned with hiding my junk it caused ripples which turned into waves. You don’t have to communicate and that’s okay but not for me. When I got real with God I got to see the true me but came to expect to see that in everybody else. It doesn’t happen that way. I want to see any and everything about you. Yes even that. I know your thinking he’s going to judge me. I try so hard not to judge but guess we all judge. No matter how hard we try. My first judging turns into appreciation that you shared. There is not a better compliment that I opened up to you because I feel I could talk to you about anything.

This blog may seem pointless and not very deep and I’m sorry it’s not more  but I think it has so much here in the few words I typed. If your hearing the great Cool Hand Luke in the back of your mind tell you “what we have here is a failure to communicate” then you have failure and its time to open that mouth and ask.

 

 





Day 819 People don’t impress me

25 04 2015

I had another amazing week with my kids. They are getting more trying though as my daughter is two weeks away from being a teenager  and I’m learning a new level of patience and just to be quite. It’s so hard when I never understood a grown woman’s hormones and now I have to understand a 12 year old’s. There is a better chance I may find a real life leprechaun.

All people are good and bad. All of us. We have all done stupid things and my level is worse than many but there are people who have  out done me 3 times over. We all put people on a pedestal and we should never and I mean never do that. The moment you do we will disappoint you. Most of the time not on purpose but because we all have fear, anger, doubt, apprehension, lack of belief and faith etc..  We think because people write a great blog, book, or they’re a pastor, great athlete, movie star, CEO that it makes them not human. Now I laugh when I see someone high-profile make a mistake and you hear, I just can’t believe they did that, I knew them my whole life and never thought, there a role model, look how many people respect them. I then ask when did they give up the title of a broken un-perfect human. Why do we hold these people to a different standard than we hold ourselves to. What they do is a job just like us. It maybe more high-profile and they make more money but they are still broken sinners. Sure it makes us feel better to hold them to a higher standard but its wrong and always will be. Actually people who are high-profile are subjected to more than we are in our daily lives and you can only deflect so much before it gets you. Think about the things that go on behind your closed doors and if people knew your life you would be so embarrassed but you wouldn’t want people to judge you but they will. So my point?

People don’t impress me. I have met enough of all of these high-profile people and know their just like me and possibly with more distractions of life.  I didn’t say I don’t respect what they do. Example Lebron James is an amazing basketball player I respect him for his talents but would I be surprised if he did something bad. No but I’m also not going to put him on a pedestal and talk crap about him, how could he, I never. There is nothing that anyone in the world that could do that I would be surprised by. No matter how much or how little you have we are sinners and broken. Some hide it better and some get put on the news. I just learned if I judge I will be judge. That crap of only God can judge is such BS. God is THE JUDGE but on this earth everybody is entitled to judge and we do. So rather than tear down someone who made a mistake just remember your about to make one too. Offer grace and a closed mouth and hopefully when your time of stupidity comes we will be treated the same.





Day 819 People don’t impress me

24 04 2015

I had another amazing week with my kids. They are getting more trying though as my daughter is two weeks away from being a teenager  and I’m learning a new level of patience and just to be quite. It’s so hard when I never understood a grown woman’s hormones and now I have to understand a 12 year old’s. There is a better chance I may find a real life leprechaun.

All people are good and bad. All of us. We have all done stupid things and my level is worse than many but there are people who have  out done me 3 times over. We all put people on a pedestal and we should never and I mean never do that. The moment you do we will disappoint you. Most of the time not on purpose but because we all have fear, anger, doubt, apprehension, lack of belief and faith etc..  We think because people write a great blog, book, or they’re a pastor, great athlete, movie star, CEO that it makes them not human. Now I laugh when I see someone high-profile make a mistake and you hear, I just can’t believe they did that, I knew them my whole life and never thought, there a role model, look how many people respect them. I then ask when did they give up the title of a broken un-perfect human. Why do we hold these people to a different standard than we hold ourselves to. What they do is a job just like us. It maybe more high-profile and they make more money but they are still broken sinners. Sure it makes us feel better to hold them to a higher standard but its wrong and always will be. Actually people who are high-profile are subjected to more than we are in our daily lives and you can only deflect so much before it gets you. Think about the things that go on behind your closed doors and if people knew your life you would be so embarrassed but you wouldn’t want people to judge you but they will. So my point?

People don’t impress me. I have met enough of all of these high-profile people and know their just like me and possibly with more distractions of life.  I didn’t say I don’t respect what they do. Example Lebron James is an amazing basketball player I respect him for his talents but would I be surprised if he did something bad. No but I’m also not going to put him on a pedestal and talk crap about him, how could he, I never. There is nothing that anyone in the world that could do that I would be surprised by. No matter how much or how little you have we are sinners and broken. Some hide it better and some get put on the news. I just learned if I judge I will be judge. That crap of only God can judge is such BS. God is THE JUDGE but on this earth everybody is entitled to judge and we do. So rather than tear down someone who made a mistake just remember your about to make one too. Offer grace and a closed mouth and hopefully when your time of stupidity comes we will be treated the same.





Day 701 Just let me bake

29 12 2014

I get a lot of questions about what does day such and such mean on the title of your blog. It has been 701 days since I put a stake in the ground and said my life changes from this day forward. So far the old is gone and new Tyler Wood continues to form. Thank you to my friends the Goodgions. I got to see them as there dad starts chemo tomorrow. Lunch was amazing and laughing was the best. Finally laying in my bed last night I wondered why I didn’t go out. I got a very random Facebook message from a college buddy. All I know I’m thankful that I could be there at that moment. Nothing is over until you take your last breath and no matter what mistakes you make all that matters is that your here. We rise from the ashes my friend and you will too.

Those thinking by the title that I’m going to be talking about marijuana I’m sorry I’m not, that might be another blog. lol. I’ve homemade cookies before and if you haven’t but you should. If you haven’t you’ve seen it. There are 1000 of different recipes. You mix and stir and then you get the cookies on the cookie sheet to bake. Before you ever get them out of the oven you criticize, you laugh at the funny looking ones, you start telling yourself I bet these don’t taste good,you wonder what others will think if the cookies look weird or taste bad and this is all done before the cookies are finished. You really have no idea about the cookies  but your opinion is formed before they are finished. I think you see where Im going here. We are all those cookies that are being stared out and opinions formed before we are done. Where we are today is not where we will finish. Some of us have a few days some have 50 more years. To look at something based on a recipe  that we once followed and judge it or  throw it away and given up on before you even have one true chance to see the final project is just stupid. I know it happens but if someone looked at you today and said that’s it. They don’t get any better and based on some past thought or just what you see I give up on you.  You see, no matter what kind of cookie you are somebody will like your cookie and you will find your batch one day. Many people gave up on me, life long friends, enemies, and my ex-wife. If I would have continued in my path my kids would have. Just give me time to bake I’m not done yet. I might look funny now or you think that my recipe is missing an ingredient, my edges are browning but my center is still soft. I’m not done baking yet. We will be judged no matter what. Stop telling people not to judge because its like breathing it’s so hard to stop,So what if they judge you and they never get to enjoy the best cookie ever because they walked away while we were still baking. No matter where you’re at we’re not done until the timer goes off. Sorry about the cooking reference but its a good analogy I thought. Remember it’s not how you start, its how you finish that matters. Carry on my good and faithful son and daughter.








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