Day 1615 Lets get naked

6 08 2017

First I want to thank you all for reading this blog. It’s so cool that people all over the world can read this. Looking at all the countries I wonder if I weird in foreign countries too.

Second I get a lot what does the day in your title mean. Well in this case 1615 days ago I started a car trip to Virginia by myself. to see one of my closet friends. I prayed and promised myself that my life would change for the better starting that day and would never be the same. So here we are 1615 days later. Its been one hell of a roller coaster but its been a blast.

I hope the title got you to read! I have been the physical naked more times that you want to hear. It was the only way I knew to love for the longest time or feel I was important. I hurt so many women over the years. It wasn’t purposeful just thought being naked meant I was enough. So shirt off,pants off and you liked me.

I hope for most of us with age comes wisdom, if not you hit your rock bottom and I promise you get wiser or you get buried.  I learned that not only does my value not coming from being physically naked but you want someone to love, like, or respect you: LETS GET REALLY NAKED. I hate small talk every bit of it, I could care less what’s up! I’m going to give or get a generic answer anyway so why I ask. The naked I want is the soul bearing, tear filled, biggest smile type of naked, clothes on or off I don’t care. I want to talk about: death, aliens, birthdays cake, what makes you cry, why you became insecure, why you fake it, music, the meaning of life,  the lies you live, your favorite smells, the quirks that nobody knows because you feel you’ll be judged, your childhood, your first crush, why you watch the ceiling fan spin at night, why does asparagus make your pee smell so bad, why you don’t like peanuts but love peanut butter. I want to know your emotions, what your depth is. Why you’re twisted.  I learned not to judge but question. When you know someone who is  feeling that,  that feeling only comes from God. if you know me and say you’re the weirdest person I know but I love your soul. Mission accomplished!

Don’t get me wrong I love the physical naked but learning what it takes to be real makes relationships powerful. I know you can’t get naked with everyone because most wont get it and that’s okay. So to me from you let’s get naked. Real is exposing your soul and not giving a damn! I’m ready for the real naked time!!

Thanks for reading

 

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Day 1302 A BUT makes you a BUTT

8 09 2016

I miss writing so often but when the day ends there is not enough time or energy. I’m trying to make it a point to get back and blog. my mind needs the writers release. Even if nobody reads it, I still need it if that makes sense.

I have always defended myself even when it wasn’t necessary. I still do now because I still forget that I am worthy and I’m enough. That if I’m wrong I’m not that little boy who didn’t have his dad to guide my way so I had to be right or I was going to always make mistakes. I like to be right and who doesn’t but that’s an excuse. We were made not to be perfect but I keep thinking i have to always be perfect and if not I’ll argue with you until I am. The past 6 months have been filled with as many changes in my life than any other time. I’m trying to always be better but!!!! That word gets me always because I might agree with you but I need you to hear my side so you know that I’m okay. So Im still insecure, frightened, unsure, changing ball of a mess. I listen to God and then I stop listening and when I stop listening welcome to Tyler Wood and his interchanging “Buts”

Have you ever went and listened to yourself when you try to defend yourself. It sounds so stupid and when you’re having a good day you step back and say what in the hell did I do that for. What did it matter if I was right or wrong. I didn’t hear the other person, I probably hurt them and I didn’t listen to anything they said. All because Im so insecure, feel unloved, unattached from anyone or anything that I just need to be heard.

I was in an argument with my fiance and we were both wrong but God forbid if I actually shut up and not have to be the heavyweight champion of arguing. So I got the title that night and I hurt her feelings and made her feel that what she had to say wasn’t important. As soon as I said But i should have stopped because the moment I kept going I became a BUTT!

Im always a work in progress like we all are but if I have to  be the champion of But I will become the champion of the BUTTS too and I really don’t need another crappy crown.

We don’t always have to be right even when we are right. The BUT stops here. I hope it can stop with you too!





Day 597 What is wrong with you really?

15 09 2014

We did it we completed the busiest weekend ever. From Friday night dance, Saturday flag football game, TCU Football game, birthday shopping, and a Chuck E Cheese birthday we packed a little bit of living in. My kids had a great weekend but my daughter was so tired she fell asleep on the toilet tonight.

What is wrong with you? I ve asked that many times after my first 6 months of divorce and learning what I did about relationships. I can tell you 10 people on Facebook right now that hop from relationship to relationship and yes even marriage to marriage since I ve been divorced. I used to hate being alone and I did that in my 20’s . I was married for 14 and I promise that’s the first thing I wanted to do is find someone to “complete me” (That makes me want to vomit when I hear it). People enhance your life they damn sure can’t complete you when they barley can complete themselves. When we rely on the opposite sex to fulfill our life we will search the rest of our life trying to find “whatever it is we are looking for”. IF WE ARE NOT HAPPY WITH US, WE WILL NEVER AND I MEAN NEVER BE HAPPY WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX. The reason we fail at relationships is for many reasons but the reason we continue to hop to one after another is for many reasons: hurt, or insecure, or very vulnerable, they have  the need of being in a relationship so they can lick the wounds they were dealt, Some people cannot stand to be alone and must have the intimate bond of a relationship. That intimacy is usually more important than choosing the right person, By changing people, they develop new feelings for them, and since there’s only room for so much the old exit, you love to rebound, you think you need sex, you’re a cheater, you love to pass the pain, You love the abuse, emotional, physical or mental. So how do you fix it. If you don’t fix it you will ALWAYS wind up in the same relationship, different name and face but the outcome is always the same. Try me and argue with me and I can show you that you have been dating the same person or married to the same person and we attract whats comfortable. Not whats right.

You see after 2.5 year of counseling I know this is what I’m normally attracted to and I promise one of my friends pointed out that there could be 50,000 great women in Cowboys stadium and you would find that one. She needs to be rescued, shes tall, darker hair, mean, bigger boobs, fake,  bitchy and hollow and will never be truthful.. Every time we go out I have to ask my friends is she mean and bitchy and I always pick her. I could date her but I don’t even ask. It’s comfortable to me and I have been dating that person since I was 15. Not all, but if they were good I pushed them out the door like a bad dog.

How do you stop it. Stop telling people the following, you’re judging me, you have never walked in my shoes, you don’t know me. We are not some mythical creature from a book. Most people are the same. We can sit back and watch your world crumble around you and know whats causing it and you would never know because your to busy telling everyone how wrong they are. We all need help and counseling. We don’t know everything and we cant. We know how to fail at relationship but don’t know how to succeed. I PROMISE ITS NOT ALWAYS THE OTHER PERSONS FAULT. If we have failed at many relationship guess who the common denominator is.

For me I may have gone to far and now I don’t have anyone in my life because I’m to picky. I would rather be safe than sorry. I made a promise to myself to never purposely hurt another woman. I know whats wrong me which is a lot and why would I bring someone into my life that I knowingly know will not work. It’s just stupid and I don’t want to bring tears to another woman’s eyes. I know it takes two but I’m only responsible for me so If I can save “her” from me I will. I don’t need the blind the blind leading the blind anymore.

So now go ahead and attack me and tell you’re a  know it all, and you think your right about this. I was a world-class relationship failure so yeah I made it a goal to change it. If you haven’t even tried to learn leave your crap and hot air at the door. It’s not even worth it. I know everyone has an opinion but that doesn’t mean it needs to be heard. Your reading my blog that I’m not writing about you so if it touches a nerve look in the mirror and you’ll find all the answers you need to right there.

PS I know my grammar and writing style sucks sometimes. I don’t care but I appreciate the feedback. If I go back and correct it Ill change what I wrote. So I’m uncut and unprotected.





Day 597 What is wrong with you really?

14 09 2014

We did it we completed the busiest weekend ever. From Friday night dance, Saturday flag football game, TCU Football game, birthday shopping, and a Chuck E Cheese birthday we packed a little bit of living in. My kids had a great weekend but my daughter was so tired she fell asleep on the toilet tonight.

What is wrong with you? I ve asked that many times after my first 6 months of divorce and learning what I did about relationships. I can tell you 10 people on Facebook right now that hop from relationship to relationship and yes even marriage to marriage since I ve been divorced. I used to hate being alone and I did that in my 20’s . I was married for 14 and I promise that’s the first thing I wanted to do is find someone to “complete me” (That makes me want to vomit when I hear it). People enhance your life they damn sure can’t complete you when they barley can complete themselves. When we rely on the opposite sex to fulfill our life we will search the rest of our life trying to find “whatever it is we are looking for”. IF WE ARE NOT HAPPY WITH US, WE WILL NEVER AND I MEAN NEVER BE HAPPY WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX. The reason we fail at relationships is for many reasons but the reason we continue to hop to one after another is for many reasons: hurt, or insecure, or very vulnerable, they have  the need of being in a relationship so they can lick the wounds they were dealt, Some people cannot stand to be alone and must have the intimate bond of a relationship. That intimacy is usually more important than choosing the right person, By changing people, they develop new feelings for them, and since there’s only room for so much the old exit, you love to rebound, you think you need sex, you’re a cheater, you love to pass the pain, You love the abuse, emotional, physical or mental. So how do you fix it. If you don’t fix it you will ALWAYS wind up in the same relationship, different name and face but the outcome is always the same. Try me and argue with me and I can show you that you have been dating the same person or married to the same person and we attract whats comfortable. Not whats right.

You see after 2.5 year of counseling I know this is what I’m normally attracted to and I promise one of my friends pointed out that there could be 50,000 great women in Cowboys stadium and you would find that one. She needs to be rescued, shes tall, darker hair, mean, bigger boobs, fake,  bitchy and hollow and will never be truthful.. Every time we go out I have to ask my friends is she mean and bitchy and I always pick her. I could date her but I don’t even ask. It’s comfortable to me and I have been dating that person since I was 15. Not all, but if they were good I pushed them out the door like a bad dog.

How do you stop it. Stop telling people the following, you’re judging me, you have never walked in my shoes, you don’t know me. We are not some mythical creature from a book. Most people are the same. We can sit back and watch your world crumble around you and know whats causing it and you would never know because your to busy telling everyone how wrong they are. We all need help and counseling. We don’t know everything and we cant. We know how to fail at relationship but don’t know how to succeed. I PROMISE ITS NOT ALWAYS THE OTHER PERSONS FAULT. If we have failed at many relationship guess who the common denominator is.

For me I may have gone to far and now I don’t have anyone in my life because I’m to picky. I would rather be safe than sorry. I made a promise to myself to never purposely hurt another woman. I know whats wrong me which is a lot and why would I bring someone into my life that I knowingly know will not work. It’s just stupid and I don’t want to bring tears to another woman’s eyes. I know it takes two but I’m only responsible for me so If I can save “her” from me I will. I don’t need the blind the blind leading the blind anymore.

So now go ahead and attack me and tell you’re a  know it all, and you think your right about this. I was a world-class relationship failure so yeah I made it a goal to change it. If you haven’t even tried to learn leave your crap and hot air at the door. It’s not even worth it. I know everyone has an opinion but that doesn’t mean it needs to be heard. Your reading my blog that I’m not writing about you so if it touches a nerve look in the mirror and you’ll find all the answers you need to right there.

 

PS I know my grammar and writing style sucks sometimes. I don’t care but I appreciate the feedback. If I go back and correct it Ill change what I wrote. So I’m uncut and unprotected.





Day 98 Cheap Sex

27 11 2012

m tired my daughter work up with an ear ache and didn’t go back to sleep until 4:00. Then at 4:30 my son comes to bed and tells me for 10 minutes about a scary dream. He has one hell of an an imagination. Morgan did have an ear infection and I think every kid in the Dr.offices did.

My friend Laura sent me this article today and wanted to know is it true. Yes it is all of it. I m giving you the whole article here but only commenting on a few parts. Will He Stick Around After You Get Intimate? Not If You Make These Common Mistakes

This is a great read for women and men take a few notes. Ladies please know this is for real men not little boys or lying men.

What You Need To Create In Him BEFORE You Have Sex

Here’s the thing…

Yes, you might have “goofed” by being physical with him too early – you know, before you were clear about what YOU wanted, so that you wouldn’t get hurt if you found out he didn’t want the same thing.

But stop being so hard on yourself. It’s the past, and it’s not the problem now. The real problem now is something entirely different. Sleeping or being physical with a man is NOT a bad thing.

But FIRST you’ve got to CREATE the right FEELINGS inside him – feelings that have nothing to do with SEX – for sex to end up truly bringing you closer in love.

A man won’t “fall” for you just because you’ve slept together. Although, it’s likely that YOU will feel more bonded to him after sleeping with him.

It’s part of the biological make-up of a woman and a man. It’s the way things are “wired.”

So you want to know how to “re-wire” things?

First of all, stop hoping that the fact that you’ve had sex will magically win him over into being an open and loving partner like you are.

Then read the section in Chapter 8 of my eBook called “Triggering A Deeper Level Of Attraction In A Man”:

Download eBook

What you need to know is there. In it, I reveal another kind of ATTRACTION that goes deeper than just the everyday PHYSICAL ATTRACTION a man can feel for you: EMOTIONAL ATTRACTION.

When a man feels ATTRACTION for you in this way, then he will become EMOTIONALLY CONNECTED to you on a deeper level than he ever could simply through his physical desire for you.

You know a man has intense physical desires. That’s easy.

But have you taken the time to learn how the deeper, more “relationship-oriented” feelings and emotions are created inside him?

The feelings that make a man want to be with one woman in a committed relationship are different than what makes A WOMAN open to exploring a relationship.

Ever Thought About What A Man Really Wants In A Woman?

I’m talking about mature, healthy men here. Not “man-boys” or “players”, who have a totally different agenda altogether.

Men want someone they feel deeply ATTRACTED to.

They want to have that feeling of WANTING a woman.

They want to worship her, to please her, to ravish her, and to sweep her off her feet with their physical and emotional presence. And for the woman to be utterly and completely taken with them and what they do.

So, what happens when men act like they’re not interested in anything serious or don’t want a relationship or their too busy to have one… or any other of a list of lame excuses they give you?

This happens because most women don’t create the experience that will make a man FEEL this way.

Plain and simple.

A man is looking for that “WOW!” experience with a woman. And when he doesn’t feel it, there’s nothing a woman who doesn’t make him FEEL this way can do or say to make him want something more with her.

He just loses interest and moves on.

But keep reading, because I’m going to show you how to create that unforgettable experience for him…

His Drive To Be Challenged… And Win

The other thing to know is that men have something that I call the “Pursuit Gene.”

There’s a drive in men that makes them want to be CHALLENGED… and to overcome that challenge. I know it sounds cliche, but it’s true.

Men want to be challenged by the idea of meeting, attracting, and pursuing a woman. And then they want to win the woman over and feel stronger as a man for having done it.

Men will meet this challenge in one of two ways:

  1. They’ll find fulfillment from the feeling of “freedom” and emptiness by physically being with a woman in the short-term (sex)
  2. They find connection and love by physically AND emotionally being with the woman in a deeper and “longer-term” way (relationship)

Here’s the AMAZING part…

A woman helps him choose which it will be with her.

Interesting…

The Point Is, Men LOVE The Chase

It’s part of their genetic make-up.

But if a woman loses control emotionally, seeks HIS APPROVAL, or thinks she can trade sex to receive love before a man is experiencing an intense desire to WIN HER OVER and to be with her, then something else happens.

The man loses that feeling of excitement and challenge with her. He recognizes that the woman has already given over physical and emotional CONTROL to him. Which destroys the strongest “lead-in” to creating lasting love with a man.

What is that “lead-in”?

ATTRACTION.

Men want to feel ATTRACTION.

They don’t want a woman to try to convince them that what they’re experiencing and feeling should be meaningful and loving. No. That’s not how men work.

Instead, they want to FEEL their desire for a woman inside their whole body, emotionally driving them, and for it to be undeniable and unrelenting.

Get where I’m going here?

Don’t Deny Him The Thrill Of The Chase

So if you don’t allow a man to FEEL that desire, to feel like he can’t stop thinking about you and wanting you BEFORE you sleep with him, it won’t create a situation where he’s going to want anything more than a fleeting sexual experience.

There is a way to get a man FEELING it for you.

There are specific behaviors and attitudes that make a woman literally IRRESISTIBLE to a man, so that he will feel that strong desire to be with you before, during and the all-important AFTER getting physically intimate with him.

And he will not only be “open” to talking about something deeper and more meaningful with you, he’ll INSIST on it.

How To Make Him Want You And Only You

I’ve put together an entire program about what it is that makes a man fall madly for you because he just can’t stop thinking about you and wanting you.

This program is Natural & Lasting Attraction. In it, I explain exactly what a woman can do and say to push all the “right buttons” to create Emotional Attraction.

I also reveal little-known secrets such as:

  • How to spot and identify an immature man QUICKLY so you never again waste your time on someone who doesn’t deserve you
  • The 5 things about a woman that a man is genetically programmed to be attracted to… and how to quickly let a man know you possess ALL these qualities
  • The mysterious “missing ingredient” that makes a man interested in MUCH MORE than just a short fling or affair

And tons more…

I explain it all right here (and you can watch right now):

Natural & Lasting Attraction

I don’t ever want you to feel insecure and uncertain when you sleep with a man. Watch Natural & Lasting Attraction now and find out what it takes to be the woman he can’t wait to be physically AND emotionally close with… again and again.





Day 98 Cheap Sex

27 11 2012

I m tired my daughter work up with an ear ache and didn’t go back to sleep until 4:00. Then at 4:30 my son comes to bed and tells me for 10 minutes about a scary dream. He has one hell of an an imagination. Morgan did have an ear infection and I think every kid in the Dr.offices did.

My friend Laura sent me this article today and wanted to know is it true. Yes it is all of it. I m giving you the whole article here but only commenting on a few parts. Will He Stick Around After You Get Intimate? Not If You Make These Common Mistakes

This is a great read for women and men take a few notes. Ladies please know this is for real men not little boys or lying men.

What You Need To Create In Him BEFORE You Have Sex

Here’s the thing…

Yes, you might have “goofed” by being physical with him too early – you know, before you were clear about what YOU wanted, so that you wouldn’t get hurt if you found out he didn’t want the same thing.

But stop being so hard on yourself. It’s the past, and it’s not the problem now. The real problem now is something entirely different. Sleeping or being physical with a man is NOT a bad thing.

But FIRST you’ve got to CREATE the right FEELINGS inside him – feelings that have nothing to do with SEX – for sex to end up truly bringing you closer in love.

A man won’t “fall” for you just because you’ve slept together. Although, it’s likely that YOU will feel more bonded to him after sleeping with him.

It’s part of the biological make-up of a woman and a man. It’s the way things are “wired.”

So you want to know how to “re-wire” things?

First of all, stop hoping that the fact that you’ve had sex will magically win him over into being an open and loving partner like you are.

Then read the section in Chapter 8 of my eBook called “Triggering A Deeper Level Of Attraction In A Man”:

Download eBook

What you need to know is there. In it, I reveal another kind of ATTRACTION that goes deeper than just the everyday PHYSICAL ATTRACTION a man can feel for you: EMOTIONAL ATTRACTION.

When a man feels ATTRACTION for you in this way, then he will become EMOTIONALLY CONNECTED to you on a deeper level than he ever could simply through his physical desire for you.

You know a man has intense physical desires. That’s easy.

But have you taken the time to learn how the deeper, more “relationship-oriented” feelings and emotions are created inside him?

The feelings that make a man want to be with one woman in a committed relationship are different than what makes A WOMAN open to exploring a relationship.

Ever Thought About What A Man Really Wants In A Woman?

I’m talking about mature, healthy men here. Not “man-boys” or “players”, who have a totally different agenda altogether.

Men want someone they feel deeply ATTRACTED to.

They want to have that feeling of WANTING a woman.

They want to worship her, to please her, to ravish her, and to sweep her off her feet with their physical and emotional presence. And for the woman to be utterly and completely taken with them and what they do.

So, what happens when men act like they’re not interested in anything serious or don’t want a relationship or their too busy to have one… or any other of a list of lame excuses they give you?

This happens because most women don’t create the experience that will make a man FEEL this way.

Plain and simple.

A man is looking for that “WOW!” experience with a woman. And when he doesn’t feel it, there’s nothing a woman who doesn’t make him FEEL this way can do or say to make him want something more with her.

He just loses interest and moves on.

But keep reading, because I’m going to show you how to create that unforgettable experience for him…

His Drive To Be Challenged… And Win

The other thing to know is that men have something that I call the “Pursuit Gene.”

There’s a drive in men that makes them want to be CHALLENGED… and to overcome that challenge. I know it sounds cliche, but it’s true.

Men want to be challenged by the idea of meeting, attracting, and pursuing a woman. And then they want to win the woman over and feel stronger as a man for having done it.

Men will meet this challenge in one of two ways:

  1. They’ll find fulfillment from the feeling of “freedom” and emptiness by physically being with a woman in the short-term (sex)
  2. They find connection and love by physically AND emotionally being with the woman in a deeper and “longer-term” way (relationship)

Here’s the AMAZING part…

A woman helps him choose which it will be with her.

Interesting…

The Point Is, Men LOVE The Chase

It’s part of their genetic make-up.

But if a woman loses control emotionally, seeks HIS APPROVAL, or thinks she can trade sex to receive love before a man is experiencing an intense desire to WIN HER OVER and to be with her, then something else happens.

The man loses that feeling of excitement and challenge with her. He recognizes that the woman has already given over physical and emotional CONTROL to him. Which destroys the strongest “lead-in” to creating lasting love with a man.

What is that “lead-in”?

ATTRACTION.

Men want to feel ATTRACTION.

They don’t want a woman to try to convince them that what they’re experiencing and feeling should be meaningful and loving. No. That’s not how men work.

Instead, they want to FEEL their desire for a woman inside their whole body, emotionally driving them, and for it to be undeniable and unrelenting.

Get where I’m going here?

Don’t Deny Him The Thrill Of The Chase

So if you don’t allow a man to FEEL that desire, to feel like he can’t stop thinking about you and wanting you BEFORE you sleep with him, it won’t create a situation where he’s going to want anything more than a fleeting sexual experience.

There is a way to get a man FEELING it for you.

There are specific behaviors and attitudes that make a woman literally IRRESISTIBLE to a man, so that he will feel that strong desire to be with you before, during and the all-important AFTER getting physically intimate with him.

And he will not only be “open” to talking about something deeper and more meaningful with you, he’ll INSIST on it.

How To Make Him Want You And Only You

I’ve put together an entire program about what it is that makes a man fall madly for you because he just can’t stop thinking about you and wanting you.

This program is Natural & Lasting Attraction. In it, I explain exactly what a woman can do and say to push all the “right buttons” to create Emotional Attraction.

I also reveal little-known secrets such as:

  • How to spot and identify an immature man QUICKLY so you never again waste your time on someone who doesn’t deserve you
  • The 5 things about a woman that a man is genetically programmed to be attracted to… and how to quickly let a man know you possess ALL these qualities
  • The mysterious “missing ingredient” that makes a man interested in MUCH MORE than just a short fling or affair

And tons more…

I explain it all right here (and you can watch right now):

Natural & Lasting Attraction

I don’t ever want you to feel insecure and uncertain when you sleep with a man. Watch Natural & Lasting Attraction now and find out what it takes to be the woman he can’t wait to be physically AND emotionally close with… again and again.








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