Day 989 Happy 40th birthday to me

12 10 2015

Yesterday after all the anticipation of it being here I did it. I turned 40. Friday I went back to my high school homecoming and got to see a lot of people. Conversation was generic but good to see people you grew up with.  Saturday got to watch my little boy play flag football and the light switch went on so he started playing amazing. Saturday night I had an amazing birthday party with my closest friends and then Sunday I had a surprise birthday with my family. I’ve never had a surprise party. It was really cool. I ate too much cake but that’s what it’s there for.

Last week after 3 years of getting my life back in order I was approved for a house and the option ended. At the end of this month I will be a home owner again. My kids will have their own room and my dog her own yard. Its been a road I wouldn’t change but man its been curvy, filled with pot holes, excuses, tears, blood, but new experiences, overcoming obstacles, great new friends, belief in myself, a new outlook on life and a true relationship with Jesus. I got overwhelmed yesterday in church and cried those big tears that rolled down my cheeks. 4 short years ago I sat in my car and had said I was sorry to everyone and said I’m sorry I wouldn’t make it to 40 years. To believe that I was ready to take my life and now I wouldn’t know what to do without the life I had is truly a miracle.

I’ve experienced a hell of a lot of life in these 40 years. So great and some not so much. I’ve seen myself at my worst and now to see what God made me to be at my best. I have the best surrounding me. People who want whats best for not because it benefits them but because that truly care about who I am. I got a ton of happy birthday messages on FB and text yesterday but I got 2 that touched my heart. Paraphrasing: you deciding to not take your life helped me get my life back and thank you. The world is a better place with you in it. When I read things like that turning 40 wasn’t so bad.  I have no idea what life has in store but man I’m so glad im here to experience it.

Thank you for reading this blog! Allowing me to throw out some thoughts, feeling and opinions that most don’t have. Loving me and my heart, watching me grow as a man, and never allowing me to do nothing more than be my best.



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