Day 703 I finally have fallen in love again

30 12 2014

For all of those new Years Resolutions people here is a fresh idea. Go back to what you wanted to do last year, figure out why you didn’t accomplish those. You will never have solutions to your resolutions until you figure out why you didn’t accomplish what you wanted to from the year before. When you figure it our reevaluate. Don’t try to move forward when you haven’t moved from last year. just an idea!

Yes I have finally fallen in love again. Its been a few years coming and its so much better than before. No I haven’t fallen in love with a new woman but my children again. I know some of you thought really I had no idea you had a woman I don’t, I’m not sure if I will master that but I sure have with my kids.

My kids are growing up and they aren’t as dependent on me in different ways than when they younger. My daughter is in 7th grade my son started Kindergarten this year. They are both so smart and witty.I can carry on conversations with them about so many different things. They even make me raise my eyebrows with how smart they are and what they know.When you don’t have you kids 7 days at time one you appreciate your time with them so much more when you have them, but you also see how much they grow up in  7 days. If you your married or have your kids all the time it’s just life but you don’t see the subtle changes than when they’re not there.  When they were here for the week of Christmas we talked a lot about God, being grateful and giving back. I think I stink at teaching about those things but even my 6 year gave me examples of how I was teaching  them through my words and bringing them to Rock Bottom events.  When I dropped them back off with their mom Christmas eve I hugged them like I wouldn’t see them again I’m sure they wondered what was up. That night I spent with myself just appreciating  how far I had come as a parent. June 2012 I moved out of my house and my first thought is I can’t be a single daddy. I m going to fail so miserably. I’m going to damaged them more than I already have. Christmas eve 2014 I fell in love with them all over again. I didn’t know it was possible to love two human beings as much as I do my children. No matter what I put them through they love me, I feel it, I see it, and they reflect that.

No matter what you have done wrong as a parent kids are forgiving: spend time with your kids, tell them how amazing they are, build them up, set examples for them, and fall in love with them all over again. BTW  if you don’t believe in God and miracles Im  living proof that God can take a big pile of nothing (not true but my thoughts at one time) and transform you into changing lives most importantly your children’s.





Day 703 I finally have fallen in love again

30 12 2014

For all of those new Years Resolutions people here is a fresh idea. Go back to what you wanted to do last year, figure out why you didn’t accomplish those. You will never have solutions to your resolutions until you figure out why you didn’t accomplish what you wanted to from the year before. When you figure it our reevaluate. Don’t try to move forward when you haven’t moved from last year. just an idea!

Yes I have finally fallen in love again. Its been a few years coming and its so much better than before. No I haven’t fallen in love with a new woman but my children again. I know some of you thought really I had no idea you had a woman I don’t, I’m not sure if I will master that but I sure have with my kids.

My kids are growing up and they aren’t as dependent on me in different ways than when they younger. My daughter is in 7th grade my son started Kindergarten this year. They are both so smart and witty.I can carry on conversations with them about so many different things. They even make me raise my eyebrows with how smart they are and what they know.When you don’t have you kids 7 days at time one you appreciate your time with them so much more when you have them, but you also see how much they grow up in  7 days. If you your married or have your kids all the time it’s just life but you don’t see the subtle changes than when they’re not there.  When they were here for the week of Christmas we talked a lot about God, being grateful and giving back. I think I stink at teaching about those things but even my 6 year gave me examples of how I was teaching  them through my words and bringing them to Rock Bottom events.  When I dropped them back off with their mom Christmas eve I hugged them like I wouldn’t see them again I’m sure they wondered what was up. That night I spent with myself just appreciating  how far I had come as a parent. June 2012 I moved out of my house and my first thought is I can’t be a single daddy. I m going to fail so miserably. I’m going to damaged them more than I already have. Christmas eve 2014 I fell in love with them all over again. I didn’t know it was possible to love two human beings as much as I do my children. No matter what I put them through they love me, I feel it, I see it, and they reflect that.

No matter what you have done wrong as a parent kids are forgiving: spend time with your kids, tell them how amazing they are, build them up, set examples for them, and fall in love with them all over again. BTW  if you don’t believe in God and miracles Im  living proof that God can take a big pile of nothing (not true but my thoughts at one time) and transform you into changing lives mostly importantly your children’s.





Day 701 Just let me bake

29 12 2014

I get a lot of questions about what does day such and such mean on the title of your blog. It has been 701 days since I put a stake in the ground and said my life changes from this day forward. So far the old is gone and new Tyler Wood continues to form. Thank you to my friends the Goodgions. I got to see them as there dad starts chemo tomorrow. Lunch was amazing and laughing was the best. Finally laying in my bed last night I wondered why I didn’t go out. I got a very random Facebook message from a college buddy. All I know I’m thankful that I could be there at that moment. Nothing is over until you take your last breath and no matter what mistakes you make all that matters is that your here. We rise from the ashes my friend and you will too.

Those thinking by the title that I’m going to be talking about marijuana I’m sorry I’m not, that might be another blog. lol. I’ve homemade cookies before and if you haven’t but you should. If you haven’t you’ve seen it. There are 1000 of different recipes. You mix and stir and then you get the cookies on the cookie sheet to bake. Before you ever get them out of the oven you criticize, you laugh at the funny looking ones, you start telling yourself I bet these don’t taste good,you wonder what others will think if the cookies look weird or taste bad and this is all done before the cookies are finished. You really have no idea about the cookies  but your opinion is formed before they are finished. I think you see where Im going here. We are all those cookies that are being stared out and opinions formed before we are done. Where we are today is not where we will finish. Some of us have a few days some have 50 more years. To look at something based on a recipe  that we once followed and judge it or  throw it away and given up on before you even have one true chance to see the final project is just stupid. I know it happens but if someone looked at you today and said that’s it. They don’t get any better and based on some past thought or just what you see I give up on you.  You see, no matter what kind of cookie you are somebody will like your cookie and you will find your batch one day. Many people gave up on me, life long friends, enemies, and my ex-wife. If I would have continued in my path my kids would have. Just give me time to bake I’m not done yet. I might look funny now or you think that my recipe is missing an ingredient, my edges are browning but my center is still soft. I’m not done baking yet. We will be judged no matter what. Stop telling people not to judge because its like breathing it’s so hard to stop,So what if they judge you and they never get to enjoy the best cookie ever because they walked away while we were still baking. No matter where you’re at we’re not done until the timer goes off. Sorry about the cooking reference but its a good analogy I thought. Remember it’s not how you start, its how you finish that matters. Carry on my good and faithful son and daughter.





Day 701 Just let me bake

28 12 2014

I get a lot of questions about what does day such and such mean on the title of your blog. It has been 701 days since I put a stake in the ground and said my life changes from this day forward. So far the old is gone and new Tyler Wood continues to form. Thank you to my friends the Goodgions. I got to see them as there dad starts chemo tomorrow. Lunch was amazing and laughing was the best. Finally laying in my bed last night I wondered why I didn’t go out. I got a very random Facebook message from a college buddy. All I know I’m thankful that I could be there at that moment. Nothing is over until you take your last breath and no matter what mistakes you make all that matters is that your here. We rise from the ashes my friend and you will too.

Those thinking by the title that I’m going to be talking about marijuana I’m sorry I’m not, that might be another blog. lol. I’ve homemade cookies before and if you haven’t but you should. If you haven’t you’ve seen it. There are 1000 of different recipes. You mix and stir and then you get the cookies on the cookie sheet to bake. Before you ever get them out of the oven you criticize, you laugh at the funny looking ones, you start telling yourself I bet these don’t taste good,you wonder what others will think if the cookies look weird or taste bad and this is all done before the cookies are finished. You really have no idea about the cookies  but your opinion is formed before they are finished. I think you see where Im going here. We are all those cookies that are being stared out and opinions formed before we are done. Where we are today is not where we will finish. Some of us have a few days some have 50 more years. To look at something based on a recipe  that we once followed and judge it or  throw it away and given up on before you even have one true chance to see the final project is just stupid. I know it happens but if someone looked at you today and said that’s it. They don’t get any better and based on some past thought or just what you see I give up on you.  You see, no matter what kind of cookie you are somebody will like your cookie and you will find your batch one day. Many people gave up on me, life long friends, enemies, and my ex-wife. If I would have continued in my path my kids would have. Just give me time to bake I’m not done yet. I might look funny now or you think that my recipe is missing an ingredient, my edges are browning but my center is still soft. I’m not done baking yet. We will be judged no matter what. Stop telling people not to judge because its like breathing it’s so hard to stop,So what if they judge you and they never get to enjoy the best cookie ever because they walked away while we were still baking. No matter where you’re at we’re not done until the timer goes off. Sorry about the cooking reference but its a good analogy I thought. Remember it’s not how you start, its how you finish that matters. Carry on my good and faithful son and daughter.





Day 698 Merry Christmas and My Merry Go round

26 12 2014

Merry Christmas to all my friends,family and blog buddies. My kids got more stuff than I know what to do with. I got a great idea yesterday to join my kids Santa picture. They thought it was the funniest thing ever. When people asked me how I changed  or why this picture sums it up for me.I love my kids so much. I’m very lucky for another opportunity to be their father.

Wood christmas

My merry go around. Yesterday around 4 30 I dropped my kids with their mom. I went to a Christmas party and then came home and cooked had a few drinks and thought a lot. I know many parents didn’t get to see their kids at all for Christmas or just got a few hours. it makes my heart so sad. I was really sad that my kids didn’t get to wake up with me Christmas morning. You have limited years with Santa and when the magic stays in their eyes. I shed some tears this morning but I remembered this and prayed when I got up. Its my reminder to stay close to God  and remember the man I was  and will never be again. I got to get them today around 11:30. My world was complete but still doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt like hell.

For the parents  that missed their kids. i sorry. I’m never sure why the other parent is such a butt-hole and keeps the kids from the other parent. It hurts you but the kids suffer the most. I have friends this is their first year without their kids. I had no words except I love you. Here is the only advice I can give on this day or any other. Dont’ bash the other parent, no matter how right you are, Take this time to reflect and continue to get healthy with yourself, No better time to learn to pray than when your by yourself Christmas morning.

Those that don’t have to deal with this. God bless you, but don’t get high and mighty. Sometimes the rug gets pulled out from you. Work on your marriage, make divorce the last option. If two people are willing anything can be fixed. If you don’t make your spouse and kids a priority don’t worry they will become someone elses priority. Start now. It starts with I’m sorry and a consistent burning desire to never be the person you were before.In my opinion the worst part of divorce is missing out on the big life events like Christmas because your kids are with the other parent.

Finally those of us that woke up without someone to love on Christmas day. There right there under your nose. When your ready mentally it will happen. Things don’t happen in our time and if you try to make them that way this time next year you will be single again. Be patient and faithful.  I love you and to all a goodnight.





Day 698 Merry Christmas and My Merry Go round

25 12 2014

Merry Christmas to all my friends,family and blog buddies. My kids got more stuff than I know what to do with. I got a great idea yesterday to join my kids Santa picture. They thought it was the funniest thing ever. When people asked me how I changed  or why this picture sums it up for me.I love my kids so much. I’m very lucky for another opportunity to be their father.

Wood christmas

My merry go around. Yesterday around 4 30 I dropped my kids with their mom. I went to a Christmas party and then came home and cooked had a few drinks and thought a lot. I know many parents didn’t get to see their kids at all for Christmas or just got a few hours. it makes my heart so sad. I was really sad that my kids didn’t get to wake up with me Christmas morning. You have limited years with Santa and when the magic stays in their eyes. I shed some tears this morning but I remembered this and prayed when I got up. Its my reminder to stay close to God  and remember the man I was  and will never be again. I got to get them today around 11:30. My world was complete but still doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt like hell.

For the parents  that missed their kids. i sorry. I’m never sure why the other parent is such a butt-hole and keeps the kids from the other parent. It hurts you but the kids suffer the most. I have friends this is their first year without their kids. I had no words except I love you. Here is the only advice I can give on this day or any other. Dont’ bash the other parent, no matter how right you are, Take this time to reflect and continue to get healthy with yourself, No better time to learn to pray than when your by yourself Christmas morning.

Those that don’t have to deal with this. God bless you, but don’t get high and mighty. Sometimes the rug gets pulled out from you. Work on your marriage, make divorce the last option. If two people are willing anything can be fixed. If you don’t make your spouse and kids a priority don’t worry they will become someone elses priority. Start now. It starts with I’m sorry and a consistent burning desire to never be the person you were before.In my opinion the worst part of divorce is missing out on the big life events like Christmas because your kids are with the other parent.

Finally those of us that woke up without someone to love on Christmas day. There right there under your nose. When your ready mentally it will happen. Things don’t happen in our time and if you try to make them that way this time next year you will be single again. Be patient and faithful.  I love you and to all a goodnight.





Day 694 God if your real you need to show up now

22 12 2014

I appreciate those people who go all out with Christmas Decoration. My babies, mom and nephew went through a Christmas Display in Arlington Texas Called Interlocken. It’s about 300 houses. It’s just beautiful and knowing its been going on for over 30 years is just stunning. I’m done wrapping, buying and thinking about Christmas. Its time to enjoy and make Thursday morning amazing.

I know many people who stopped believing in God because he didn’t answer their prayer. I know many others that made a choice that they will be in God when he only shows them miracles I for one doubted, challenged God, told him I hated him, and I  walked away from him. I knew what was best for me and I was going to show God. Its funny I didn’t know sH%t and I had plenty of nothing to show for it. God was there for me every time he never left me but I thought differently. I know three different occasions where I asked God to show up because I was tired of trying to believe him and knowing what “he” was doing wasn’t working. Each of these times I said God if your real I need you to show up now: 1st one was when my dad got into a coma the day he died. He had COPD and his lungs were filling up with fluid. If you have never heard the sound its one of the most horrible ways to hear someone die. I couldn’t stand it anymore and after 11 hrs I finally said God if your real please take him now. about 4 minutes later my dad stopped breathing and he went home. 2. I got into a horrible fight in the Northside of Fort Worth. One of my friends got jumped and the guys there all had knives daring someone to jump in. Well in all my infinite wisdom I did just that. When I jumped in many others did too. I asked God if he was real now would be a great time to show it. 8 people got stabbed nobody to bad but I got nothing except a broken knuckle, swollen  eye and my shirt had to be replaced. 3.  The day I moved out my house when I was getting divorced. I packed the final box I asked my friend Lew to give me a minute. I went inside looked around and cried. I told God I couldn’t do this by myself. I was so scared, I didn’t know how to be a daddy by myself, but if you are real I need you to show me now. Well here Ia flawed and all but god stepped up time and time again. When I didn’t ask he was there, when I asked he was there. I made some promises to God that if you will do this and that I will do fill in the _____________. He has and I am. God gives us opportunities everyday to bless someone else. People say God show up now. It may not be in a white rob, Charleton Heston voice, or some noble stead but it could be a 39-year-old man who reached Rock Bottom and has the most compassionate heart for others. It’s about being humble so the things I do very few know about. It’s not about the pat on the back, it’s about knowing that someone never has to feel the sense of hopelessness I did. I got the chance to help two people this week. Neither asked but I felt and knew. One person posted on FB a status and I knew exactly what they meant. Long story short I was able to send some money. It wasn’t a lot but it made a difference. I gave him the check and he said I asked God to please show me your still real and he showed up as you.  You see God is always where we need to be. We have to put down our pride, ego, anger, and sometimes just plain stupidity to see him. I will continue to teach that it’s about helping others. Sometimes just helping them see who they really are after years of being told otherwise. Sometimes its just listening, sometimes its just a check. We are the hands and feet of Jesus and no matter how you choose to see it sometimes you and I are how God shows up for others. So if your real and proclaim God is the foundation for your life its time for us to show up now.








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