Day 444 I want to tell you a story about someone

31 03 2014

Denton Rugby acted like the Dallas Cowboys and when it mattered we got our butts kicked 37-0. We were already in the playoffs and acted like we won something. I think we learned a valuable lesson and we get to see the same team again in May in the state playoffs.  If you have kids you know there are sometimes you just shrug your shoulders. I wonder how people who have two girls do it as parents. Girls are so easy when their little and then Jr. high hits and all hell breaks loose. Girls are mean too. Boys we punch each other and then were good for a month or two.

I heard this quote last night and I’m not sure who I head it from but man it makes you think: “The biggest lie we tell ourselves is that we will have more time.” We all know it’s not true but when were laying there taking our last breathes all we do is talk about the things we should have done.

I want to tell you a story about someone I know: I ve known this fella for a long time, and he was hard nut to crack but he’s finally getting it. I remember him best from high school so that’s where I’ll start.  This guy was someone who had two personalities  and not many knew one side of his personality. People thought he was always friendly, smiling, hard worker and was an example of what to be for other kids growing up, he was a spiritual leader not only for his family but for other students he was also a fan with the women but just to be friends with like a big a brother. and did a lot for others. Which he did. What others didn’t know is that he hurt, he was rejected a lot, made fun of, poor, challenged God whenever he got the chance, would fight and enjoyed watching the blood pour from another persons body. He loved women and would search for anyone who would accept him. He lacked self-confidence but even though he stood alone as a leader was fearful people would see through him and maybe even reach out to him to help, but he was too proud. He had multiple operations before he left school which took away is only real ticket out of the mess he grew up in and now there was nothing to separate him everybody else. He was just a normal guy and that was crippling for him. He wanted to move far away after high school but he could only make his way to West Texas. All that did was get him further from his past  he thought but just made it lonely and more confusing on why his life turned in the direction it did. He thought the best way for people to like him was to fear him. His first semester of college he got beat up so bad it took 5 weeks to heal, when he did he got revenge so and that when the fight was over he pulled the urinal off the wall and beat the three guys with it and pissed on them when it was done just so they wouldn’t forget him. He would sit in the stands at night and pray for a women who would be exactly what God wanted. Yes every night!  He wouldn’t let anyone get close but he sure wanted that. He searched for friendship and love in so many of the wrong places that sometimes he found it. He left West Texas and headed back to Fort Worth to find the football life he was supposed to be. When he got to TCU he found people he didn’t fit in with, a lost passion for football mostly life. Only serious conversation he ever had with his father ended with hatred even more for his father. He also treated the people who cared for him that most like crap and asked them to leave him alone. Fast forward and he gets to UNT and joins a fraternity. This is the same guy that had never had a drink in his life but he had to fit in somewhere because he fit in nowhere. He drank and drank some more and weighed 37o lbs. Who would want that guy! One beautiful blonde did and she turned his life upside down. She did things and made him feel in ways he never had but like everybody else she left him and broke his heart into the tiniest of pieces. He loved or thought what was love and it was gone. With it came more hatred, revenge, harsh words, and pain inflected on anyone who crossed him. How he didn’t end up with a VD, in prison, or dead is beyond him. He lived this most full throttle life of anyone he knew and if you asked or dared his answer was yes.

Then in January 1998 a women walked into his life and changed his whole entire thought process. He knew 3 months into it that he was in love and would get married. He had made plans for their 30, 40 and even 80′s, but on their wedding day he knew it would never last, but said maybe it will workout. He tried to become something he wasn’t, live a life he didn’t want, and impress someone he couldn’t. He was blessed with two beautiful children that he didn’t appreciate because he didn’t appreciate anything and hated every inch of himself.  Luck would have it that again would crush him and take his dignity, family, business, friendships, marriage, and his whole being was destroyed. So much so on a Tuesday morning he planned to take his life so “others” could benefit from his life insurance and not be a burden any longer. God intervened and actually for the first time talked to him so he could here.  Since that fateful morning he has become a new man, still flawed and dead inside some days, but he his honest, fun-loving, charismatic, loves to make others laugh, would do anything for anybody, great husband material one day and an example for others to follow.

If you haven’t guessed that someone is me Tyler Wood. I was asked last night why do I blog and what do you get from it.. I blog because I have a story that has changed my life but is changing others just because I decided to open my mouth and be vulnerable. Im nobody special just a guy who almost took his life so I could  learn to help others so they won’t take theirs.

 





The Types of Friends You Need During Divorce

31 03 2014

Lessons From the End of a Marriage

It is normal for your marriage to be at the center of your social life. You have a built-in activity partner. You share friends. The “plus one” is expected when you receive an invitation.

And then the marriage dies.

Your go-to is gone. The mutual friends may be divvied up like a bag of Skittles, or they may simply scatter as though the bag of candy was dropped to the floor.

It is tempting to hide. To hibernate. You may want to pull the covers over your head and not come out until the debris field has been cleared. It’s tempting, but it won’t help you heal. Think of the skin under a bandage that has been left on too long. Is that what you want your heart to look like?  Click here to read the rest.

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Day 444 I want to tell you a story about someone

31 03 2014

Denton Rugby acted like the Dallas Cowboys and when it mattered we got our butts kicked 37-0. We were already in the playoffs and acted like we won something. I think we learned a valuable lesson and we get to see the same team again in May in the state playoffs.  If you have kids you know there are sometimes you just shrug your shoulders. I wonder how people who have two girls do it as parents. Girls are so easy when their little and then Jr. high hits and all hell breaks loose. Girls are mean too. Boys we punch each other and then were good for a month or two.

I heard this quote last night and I’m not sure who I head it from but man it makes you think: “The biggest lie we tell ourselves is that we will have more time.” We all know it’s not true but when were laying there taking our last breathes all we do is talk about the things we should have done.

I want to tell you a story about someone I know: I ve known this fella for a long time, and he was hard nut to crack but he’s finally getting it. I remember him best from high school so that’s where I’ll start.  This guy was someone who had two personalities  and not many knew one side of his personality. People thought he was always friendly, smiling, hard worker and was an example of what to be for other kids growing up, he was a spiritual leader not only for his family but for other students he was also a fan with the women but just to be friends with like a big a brother. and did a lot for others. Which he did. What others didn’t know is that he hurt, he was rejected a lot, made fun of, poor, challenged God whenever he got the chance, would fight and enjoyed watching the blood pour from another persons body. He loved women and would search for anyone who would accept him. He lacked self-confidence but even though he stood alone as a leader was fearful people would see through him and maybe even reach out to him to help, but he was too proud. He had multiple operations before he left school which took away is only real ticket out of the mess he grew up in and now there was nothing to separate him everybody else. He was just a normal guy and that was crippling for him. He wanted to move far away after high school but he could only make his way to West Texas. All that did was get him further from his past  he thought but just made it lonely and more confusing on why his life turned in the direction it did. He thought the best way for people to like him was to fear him. His first semester of college he got beat up so bad it took 5 weeks to heal, when he did he got revenge so and that when the fight was over he pulled the urinal off the wall and beat the three guys with it and pissed on them when it was done just so they wouldn’t forget him. He would sit in the stands at night and pray for a women who would be exactly what God wanted. Yes every night!  He wouldn’t let anyone get close but he sure wanted that. He searched for friendship and love in so many of the wrong places that sometimes he found it. He left West Texas and headed back to Fort Worth to find the football life he was supposed to be. When he got to TCU he found people he didn’t fit in with, a lost passion for football mostly life. Only serious conversation he ever had with his father ended with hatred even more for his father. He also treated the people who cared for him that most like crap and asked them to leave him alone. Fast forward and he gets to UNT and joins a fraternity. This is the same guy that had never had a drink in his life but he had to fit in somewhere because he fit in nowhere. He drank and drank some more and weighed 37o lbs. Who would want that guy! One beautiful blonde did and she turned his life upside down. She did things and made him feel in ways he never had but like everybody else she left him and broke his heart into the tiniest of pieces. He loved or thought what was love and it was gone. With it came more hatred, revenge, harsh words, and pain inflected on anyone who crossed him. How he didn’t end up with a VD, in prison, or dead is beyond him. He lived this most full throttle life of anyone he knew and if you asked or dared his answer was yes.

Then in January 1998 a women walked into his life and changed his whole entire thought process. He knew 3 months into it that he was in love and would get married. He had made plans for their 30, 40 and even 80′s, but on their wedding day he knew it would never last, but said maybe it will workout. He tried to become something he wasn’t, live a life he didn’t want, and impress someone he couldn’t. He was blessed with two beautiful children that he didn’t appreciate because he didn’t appreciate anything and hated every inch of himself.  Luck would have it that again would crush him and take his dignity, family, business, friendships, marriage, and his whole being was destroyed. So much so on a Tuesday morning he planned to take his life so “others” could benefit from his life insurance and not be a burden any longer. God intervened and actually for the first time talked to him so he could here.  Since that fateful morning he has become a new man, still flawed and dead inside some days, but he his honest, fun-loving, charismatic, loves to make others laugh, would do anything for anybody, great husband material one day and an example for others to follow.

If you haven’t guessed that someone is me Tyler Wood. I was asked last night why do I blog and what do you get from it.. I blog because I have a story that has changed my life but is changing others just because I decided to open my mouth and be vulnerable. Im nobody special just a guy who almost took his life so I could  learn to help others so they won’t take theirs.

 





Day 444 I want to tell you a story about someone

30 03 2014

Denton Rugby acted like the Dallas Cowboys and when it mattered we got our butts kicked 37-0. We were already in the playoffs and acted like we won something. I think we learned a valuable lesson and we get to see the same team again in May in the state playoffs.  If you have kids you know there are sometimes you just shrug your shoulders. I wonder how people who have two girls do it as parents. Girls are so easy when their little and then Jr. high hits and all hell breaks loose. Girls are mean too. Boys we punch each other and then were good for a month or two.

I heard this quote last night and I’m not sure who I head it from but man it makes you think: “The biggest lie we tell ourselves is that we will have more time.” We all know it’s not true but when were laying there taking our last breathes all we do is talk about the things we should have done.

I want to tell you a story about someone I know: I ve known this fella for a long time, and he was hard nut to crack but he’s finally getting it. I remember him best from high school so that’s where I’ll start.  This guy was someone who had two personalities  and not many knew one side of his personality. People thought he was always friendly, smiling, hard worker and was an example of what to be for other kids growing up, he was a spiritual leader not only for his family but for other students he was also a fan with the women but just to be friends with like a big a brother. and did a lot for others. Which he did. What others didn’t know is that he hurt, he was rejected a lot, made fun of, poor, challenged God whenever he got the chance, would fight and enjoyed watching the blood pour from another persons body. He loved women and would search for anyone who would accept him. He lacked self-confidence but even though he stood alone as a leader was fearful people would see through him and maybe even reach out to him to help, but he was too proud. He had multiple operations before he left school which took away is only real ticket out of the mess he grew up in and now there was nothing to separate him everybody else. He was just a normal guy and that was crippling for him. He wanted to move far away after high school but he could only make his way to West Texas. All that did was get him further from his past  he thought but just made it lonely and more confusing on why his life turned in the direction it did. He thought the best way for people to like him was to fear him. His first semester of college he got beat up so bad it took 5 weeks to heal, when he did he got revenge so and that when the fight was over he pulled the urinal off the wall and beat the three guys with it and pissed on them when it was done just so they wouldn’t forget him. He would sit in the stands at night and pray for a women who would be exactly what God wanted. Yes every night!  He wouldn’t let anyone get close but he sure wanted that. He searched for friendship and love in so many of the wrong places that sometimes he found it. He left West Texas and headed back to Fort Worth to find the football life he was supposed to be. When he got to TCU he found people he didn’t fit in with, a lost passion for football mostly life. Only serious conversation he ever had with his father ended with hatred even more for his father. He also treated the people who cared for him that most like crap and asked them to leave him alone. Fast forward and he gets to UNT and joins a fraternity. This is the same guy that had never had a drink in his life but he had to fit in somewhere because he fit in nowhere. He drank and drank some more and weighed 37o lbs. Who would want that guy! One beautiful blonde did and she turned his life upside down. She did things and made him feel in ways he never had but like everybody else she left him and broke his heart into the tiniest of pieces. He loved or thought what was love and it was gone. With it came more hatred, revenge, harsh words, and pain inflected on anyone who crossed him. How he didn’t end up with a VD, in prison, or dead is beyond him. He lived this most full throttle life of anyone he knew and if you asked or dared his answer was yes.

Then in January 1998 a women walked into his life and changed his whole entire thought process. He knew 3 months into it that he was in love and would get married. He had made plans for their 30, 40 and even 80’s, but on their wedding day he knew it would never last, but said maybe it will workout. He tried to become something he wasn’t, live a life he didn’t want, and impress someone he couldn’t. He was blessed with two beautiful children that he didn’t appreciate because he didn’t appreciate anything and hated every inch of himself.  Luck would have it that again would crush him and take his dignity, family, business, friendships, marriage, and his whole being was destroyed. So much so on a Tuesday morning he planned to take his life so “others” could benefit from his life insurance and not be a burden any longer. God intervened and actually for the first time talked to him so he could here.  Since that fateful morning he has become a new man, still flawed and dead inside some days, but he his honest, fun-loving, charismatic, loves to make others laugh, would do anything for anybody, great husband material one day and an example for others to follow.

If you haven’t guessed that someone is me Tyler Wood. I was asked last night why do I blog and what do you get from it.. I blog because I have a story that has changed my life but is changing others just because I decided to open my mouth and be vulnerable. Im nobody special just a guy who almost took his life so I could  learn to help others so they won’t take theirs.





Day 439 Must do Checklist for men

26 03 2014

Another week and another funeral. I’ve had three of my high school friends lose their fathers in the past two weeks. It’s a sad day for them and I hope they have forgiven them so that burden doesn’t stick with for a long time. I mentioned in the last blog how I listen to a lot of conversations and if you go back and listen to people how many times did you hear the following: Well it happened to me so you can deal with it. After being on the learning curve here is what I know: Just because it happened to you doesn’t mean we have to let it happen to someone else. Most  will say there is nothing I can do. Yes you can step up and say something. True most won’t listen but if you’re trying to live by example and turn your pain and experience into help is something we can do. I know many times when I was about to run into the wall at 110mph I wish someone would have reached it. We don’t have to save everyone we just start with one! 

On Facebook you can find any list to better yourself, I found this great one about a checklist for men: These are things our dads should have told us but maybe didn’t. I’ll highlight a few of the ones I think I really liked or missed in my life.

1. Go for women who you perceive to be out of your league: “You’ll surprise yourself”. It’s funny because the first thing your guy friends will do is tell you she’s out of your league because they don’t want you to get her and they wouldn’t ask. Nobody is out of your league and if she thinks she is it’s probably good she thinks that because then you won’t get messed up in her crap.

5. Never take her to a movie on a first date: What your telling her is that you’re trying to do something you want and you don’t have to talk to her.

10. Buy a plunger before you need a plunger. This is self-explanatory and the mess is worth a $3 plunger.

14. Call your parents every week. I talk to my mom everyday. Never know when you or they won’t be here.

17.  Compliment her shoes: My dad told me to do that and her hair. I promise it works.

24. Never lend anything you can’t afford to lose. I have seen friendships and family end over stuff that wasn’t returned. IF I give it to you sure I want it back but you must need it more than me.

28- Manliness  is not only being able to take care of yourself but care for others as well. Men were created to provide, lead and serve.

29- Go with the decision that makes for a good story-  It didn’t  make the best decision. If you know me I have some stories that people don’t believe  but I swear they are true. If you heard them sorry they made you uncomfortable or made you laugh so hard you peed your pants..

33- Don’t let the little head do the thinking for the big head. Thank God I changed this about myself. Good Lord I spent way to much time doing this one.

44 and 45 is what I’m working on now!

44. Do whatever you want to do in life but be the best at it. Enough said.

45. No one is  on their deathbed wishing they spent more time working. Enjoy your life. Maybe the hardest thing to train my brain.

45 tips-to-being-a-man

 





Day 439 Must do Checklist for men

25 03 2014

Another week and another funeral. I’ve had three of my high school friends lose their fathers in the past two weeks. It’s a sad day for them and I hope they have forgiven them so that burden doesn’t stick with for a long time. I mentioned in the last blog how I listen to a lot of conversations and if you go back and listen to people how many times did you hear the following: Well it happened to me so you can deal with it. After being on the learning curve here is what I know: Just because it happened to you doesn’t mean we have to let it happen to someone else. Most  will say there is nothing I can do. Yes you can step up and say something. True most won’t listen but if you’re trying to live by example and turn your pain and experience into help is something we can do. I know many times when I was about to run into the wall at 110mph I wish someone would have reached it. We don’t have to save everyone we just start with one! 

On Facebook you can find any list to better yourself, I found this great one about a checklist for men: These are things our dads should have told us but maybe didn’t. I’ll highlight a few of the ones I think I really liked or missed in my life.

1. Go for women who you perceive to be out of your league: “You’ll surprise yourself”. It’s funny because the first thing your guy friends will do is tell you she’s out of your league because they don’t want you to get her and they wouldn’t ask. Nobody is out of your league and if she thinks she is it’s probably good she thinks that because then you won’t get messed up in her crap.

5. Never take her to a movie on a first date: What your telling her is that you’re trying to do something you want and you don’t have to talk to her.

10. Buy a plunger before you need a plunger. This is self-explanatory and the mess is worth a $3 plunger.

14. Call your parents every week. I talk to my mom everyday. Never know when you or they won’t be here.

17.  Compliment her shoes: My dad told me to do that and her hair. I promise it works.

24. Never lend anything you can’t afford to lose. I have seen friendships and family end over stuff that wasn’t returned. IF I give it to you sure I want it back but you must need it more than me.

28- Manliness  is not only being able to take care of yourself but care for others as well. Men were created to provide, lead and serve.

29- Go with the decision that makes for a good story-  It didn’t  make the best decision. If you know me I have some stories that people don’t believe  but I swear they are true. If you heard them sorry they made you uncomfortable or made you laugh so hard you peed your pants..

33- Don’t let the little head do the thinking for the big head. Thank God I changed this about myself. Good Lord I spent way to much time doing this one.

44 and 45 is what I’m working on now!

44. Do whatever you want to do in life but be the best at it. Enough said.

45. No one is  on their deathbed wishing they spent more time working. Enjoy your life. Maybe the hardest thing to train my brain.

45 tips-to-being-a-man





Day 436 Its never to late

24 03 2014

Had a great weekend staying busy with volunteering for Rock Bottom Outreach doing cleaning, landscaping and building a handicap ramp. It was so awesome the lady at the end cried and gave us all hugs. She said nobody had ever done anything for her. Made it all worth it. I got to see a couple of friends today that I haven’t seen in at least 14 years. It’s cool to get together and remember the friendship and where it developed. Good thing is even though we have been married and had kids we haven’t lost our crazy! We also had a benefit concert last night for one of our Rugby brothers who for the second time has lung cancer at only 23.  Great turnout and benefit glad to be a part of an awesome Rugby family!

When I’m in the group I listen to conversations even though they may not know I’m listening You pick up some great bits of info and you also hear and see what others don’t. IF we had a tape recorded or conversations and played them back I think we would be appalled at what we say.  I was listening to a conversation tonight and the person is my age 37-38 and I heard them talking about opportunity in life with their career and I quote “it’s just to late for me to change it”. I think I actually turned around and stared at them and was dumbfounded that it was said. You know the rule though 90/10.  90% of people think that way and it’s why things stay the same for the majority of people. How sad is it that right now that persons life is over already.

Heres a very deep thought but so true!

25 Die

What a cruel joke that we will live this way and once defeated we can’t get up! When someone says that’s just the way they are. They maybe the worst thing that can be said because its saying that you can’t change and won’t. Many people said that about me. I have changed but by no means am I were Im going to be. I do know that my life is in my hands. Sure I struggle weekly and monthly and can’t get out of my own way sometimes but ITS NEVER TO LATE, to change anything about ourselves. The mind trash tells us we can’t but that’s all it is TRASH! Until the good Lord pulls the plug on us we can change anything. We always feel we have to understand it to change it, no what we have to do is try it to change it. If we try  and fail then try again because it’s never to late. Can you imagine if you lived 30 more years from now and mentally your life is over. If your around people who don’t support whatever it is or poor pee on your life kick them out and find those that support you. Misery loves company, but in turn good loves good.  Remember it’s never to late for ANYTHING!

 








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