Day 187 Pick these underwear

14 07 2013

A really great weekend. My daughter is having a blast in California which makes me feel better. My boy Gil is home from the Navy and we got to hang out last night at the Winstar Casino in Oklahoma . He won $1K on the $20 I gave him so I gave him the best birthday present. I also got to clean up my apartment a bit it amazing where dust can get. I also went underwear and workout shorts shopping yesterday. I’ve turned into the ultimate dork because it took me 20 minutes to pick the exact package of underwear I wanted. I’m the guy who wears his underwear until there holier than Swiss cheese. It’s a big choice I guess because I’m older and I wanted to feel more protected. It was so bad that the lady asked me sir do you need any help? I asked her which ones do you like and she gave me her opinion so finally I went with those and I can say they fill great and I look like a male underwear model kind of.

Cleaning yesterday I found pictures. yes those kind of pictures from the past with my marriage and past life.So what did I do I looked through them, smiled some, got a tad upset, teared up and finally sighed. I asked myself what do I do with them? I felt burn them, box them up, hide them, trash them. I felt juvenile for wanting to burn them. No matter what that’s my past good, bad or indifferent. I was remembering while going through each picture, where if I would have done this here, or change that there would there be more pictures for today, but the answer was no. So I got a box and decided that I will keep them and I’m sure one day I will open the box again and go through them with my kids. It was probably 100 pictures and 14 years of my life and I started to put the lid on the box and stopped. This was it (the past) is just that a lid on a box and I can take the lid off or leave it closed and one day whats in the box turns into a good thing. So lid on and 14 years sealed shut and just a little more peace about life and my direction.  No matter whats in our box the box is our past and nothing can change that. Tomorrow what goes into that box is shaped by letting go. Letting go of pain hurts. I know that doesn’t make sense but sometimes we are so riddled with pain that’s all we know so there is comfort in our pain. Freeing ourselves form that pain actually does feel great. Please listen tape the box shut and let it go!!!

 

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